Sigh. You know what hurt me the most ? It's my imperfect family.

Yea, I know my friends and some of my family members are helping me and cheering me up.

You all can say you guys are helping me and i'm not helping myself !

Have you guys put yourself in my shoes and understand how I feel ?

Yea. I am a negative person. But you guys think this is what I want ?

My brother join the bad company in his Secondary School days and life just simply change from than on.

Treating home like a hotel. Whacking us when he is angry. Mum just can't do anything to help. SIGH !

Feeling useless and hopeless ! Get super sad, hurt and jealous whenever I see a happy family :'( </3

Why ? Why must god treat me this way ? 

19 years of life without a dad being there for me.

Friends still can complain about their family ! Look at mine .....

When I'm at home, most of the time i'm alone cause my mum is working and my brother will hardly be at home. Everyday come home shower and go out with his friends.

Family bonding has become lesser and lesser each day.

All I want is my family to be like how we used to be..

The fun and laughter we used to have !

Why ? Why must my aunt and relative be against me ?

Hearing one side story and start judging me.

Compare me with my cousins.

Yea, of course they won't swear and curse on fb about their family like I do !

Cause they have simply a perfect family that are treating them so good !

Yea, I might be wrong scolding unnecessary things on FB !

But do you have to bother so much and even scold me "FUCK" ?

YEA! This is simply the first time in my life my aunt is using the 4 letters word on me.

Talking to me about Karma strike. Scolding me FUCK ? 

So, may karma strike you soon too.

As a friend, I may be the most annoying friend all of you may have.

A friend that get angry easily.

A friend that is super vulgar.

A friend that breaks down as and when she like.

A friend that have always been talking about leaving this world.

I will understand it, if one day I do not have any more friends here with me by my side.

If you guys feel annoyed and irritated with me , simply just tell me straight and leave me here alone.

It's gonna be hurtful but I will understand :'(

My family .............

One fine day when i'm no longer around, I hope you guys understand !

Leaving this world might be the only way there will be peace in the family.

I've regret and my sincere apology to all :'(